What Month Is It? What Day Is It??

Is anyone else noticing a fucking trend here in 2018? Is it just me or are the days, weeks, and months just flying by? I swear it was just New Year’s Eve!!! What the actual fuck? So I feel like I literally just made all my credit card payments and paid bills that I’m suddenly…

My Sexuality

Since I was about 6 years old, I knew that I was attracted to both boys and girls. I found a few of the girls in my class to be quite pretty. When mentioning it to my mother, she quickly let me know that I should only like boys. I was allowed to think girls…

Shit Happens

Wow. What a shit week this has been. Fuck, it’s only Tuesday. Migraine from hell since yesterday afternoon. Busy work schedule. And a crazy household to attend to. Tonight, my eldest is stressing me over getting a car. She just got her license a week and a half ago. Then, before bed time, my youngest…

1.0-It Don’t Hurt Like It Used To

There was once a soundtrack to my time with 1.0. Songs about love, longing, desire, and joy. Then the songs turned to sadness, anger, frustration, and sorrow. It seems as though I have shifted in my healing over that whole situation as I’ve now noticed my soundtrack surrounding him is more leaning towards healing. I…

A Dream Analysis

I had this crazy ass dream on Thursday night. I don’t generally dig too deep into my dreams and attempt to analyze them, however, this dream was too strange not to analyze. Bear with me, I swear it will make sense in the end.  I was with a guy. We were walking down the street,…

Therapy Notes: Late From Last Week (Part 2)

Hey guys. As I’m sure you realize, I have a lot going on in my world and I have been pretty absent from the blogging world. I’m really sorry I haven’t been posting, reading, or commenting on anyone’s blogs. I’ve just really lost interest in most things that brought me joy previously. Therapy is bringing…

Deadbeats R’ US

Wanna know what really gets on my fucking nerves? Deadbeat parents. Not just deadbeat dads, moms too. For those that planned to jump down my virtual throat. I cannot stand people that go in and out of their children’s lives. I cannot understand why you would want to hurt a child that way. Staying gone…

Therapy Notes: Part 1

I mentioned in a previous post that I was beginning therapy to work through several issues. I wanted to blog about them because I feel that it will be healing for me and possibly helpful for others. I know I am not the only one going through these things, so I’d like to help others….

Painting a Picture of Misery

Hello all. As some of you know from a recent post, my family has suffered a major tragedy this holiday season. For those that don’t know, my sister lost her husband just 8 days before Christmas. He was killed in a snow mobile accident on the last day of his business trip. Just 4 hours…

Searching

I’m trying to find what causes me To stay broken inside, trying to get free. I’m searching for the answers. I need to understand why. Why have I allowed this? I no longer want to try. I want to give up everything to take this pain away. I want to walk away from here and…

I’ve Been MIA

Hey guys. I just wanted to drop in and apologize for my absence. I have not posted nor read anything on WP for a few weeks.  I was busy finishing up my semester and planning for the holiday. I had huge plans for all the things I was going to write during my break from…

Anniversaries

Hey guys. I have been absent lately. Just dealing with a lot of shit in my life. I just wanted to pop in and say hello tonight. I have my final exam for my class to finish up then I am done for the semester. 3 week break here I come! Fuck yeah!! But I…